Halloween is coming......
I'm going to be Alice this year. It felt only natural. Mixed up, curious, hopeful....so many aspects of this girl, this life. Some days feel like Wonderland. Stepping into a dream. Impossible to define on paper. So I didn't even try.
.....7 months since I blogged....
Honestly feels like a century. Time just slips away. The next thing you know, seasons change. So here I am...still just me, but at least I'm finally getting a sense of
who that is again. It feels good. Better than good. Sure it's been painful, but there's always pain in growing. And I can honestly say I have learned this year, perhaps more than in my previous life's experiences combined. Metamorphosis is lovely....terrifying, but rich with beauty for those brave enough to accept the gift. My wings are spread wide, waiting for the next rush.
I've gone on some Grand Adventures this summer.......
Watched salmon jump, Walked a suspension bridge, Visited another state, Visited another country, Did more photo shoots than I care to count, Attempted catching elusive fish with my Kiddo every week....only to end up with one....Grew an amazing garden, Played naked in The Nature, Walked Art Walks, Hempfest, Folklife and Pride Parades, Made new friends over Mojito slushies, Met colorful Peeps everywhere I turned, Watched glorious plays in parks I'd never been to, Saw Robert Plant in the vineyard, Rocked out to amazing music, Discovered new beaches....Found Treasure....found MySelf....
LoVe , found Respect....
Joy, Found
My Souls Perfect Match.
........Walked off the path
And it was Incredible!!!
Just a glimmer of some of the worlds I've been playing in....now time to get back into the one involving black ink on white paper. It's always easiest to start here. With my friends, allies and biggest motivators. You who have seen me at my clumsiest and persist on pushing me. Encouraging me to press on and loving me back. I've moved houses, cities, relationships.....sometimes it feels like the ground beneath my feet is shifting with me as I walk.
I'm free to be me for the first time....
Now I 'm learning what to do with it.
So I'm visiting my book again....like a kid at Christmas, it's full of wonder. It's been such a long time since I've written that it feels as though the words came from somewhere else. Another mind, another time. I may end up re-writing the whole thing. Probably will. But I'm excited either way....because I'm doing it again. Even picking up the rough was filled with trepidation. The entire thing sketched out collecting dust like a time capsule. Abruptly halted, no warning....I was afraid of my own creation. My plan was to have it out by last summer, but plans change. So here we are.
.....Taking it one day at a time
Doing what we do
Breathing in.........
Letting go of fear and hate
Trying to make sense of lucidity.......
EnJoYiNg the CraZZZZEeee
Loving unabashedly.....
Learning I'm Strong Enough to be vulnerable....
~Love like you deserve to be loved~
Xo Xo Xo Xo
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